When kids get in trouble by there parents they're usually grounded...yelled at...beatin' watever. Me? i get that whole dissappointed talk and stuff. I swear my dad's plan is to make me juss feel low and stupid. And hah he sure does a good job of it. I hate it so much wen i get that talk. I feel so "low"...worthless...stoopid...juss blah. I may not seem like it...but i want my parents to be proud of me too. After the whole "pond" incident...and now them finding out about my phone...and my grades are juss dropping and dropping. Shit...the year of dissapointment. I consider myself a pretty high self-esteemed person...i don't know if i can think of myself that way ne more. Yet that surprises me. Growing up gettin praise wasn't something i got in the first place. A "good job" was seldomly thrown at me about my grades. And all through junior high my parents wouldn't say a SINGLE thing about how my grades were. They'd get my report card in the mail...look at it...see all the A's..toss it on the nite stand...and 4 get that the thing ever existed. I'd always find it wide open on the desk juss sitting there. Prolly would never have known i got report cards if i never found it myself. Cuz they sure didnt even seem to mention ne thing about me. I guess back then skool was easier...and i had that drive to get good grades...the will. I've lost my will 4 that. Well maybe not totally....i want good grades so that my parents won't be dissapointed in me...not so they will be proud of me. Proud is a silent thing in my house i guess.....

But hey wat am i bitching and whining about. Some people have it worse than me rite? hah yah....compared to some i prolly have it easy. But hey i don't know wat they're dealing with...so all i have to say is i feel very "low" rite now..............unlucky
posted by Philip at 9:11 PM